The little things (that are actually big things, technically)

This morning, I got up early.  Not before sunrise, just 6am.  I’m going with a friend to the airport to pick up a new volunteer.  I’m realizing now that one thing I’ve grown all to comfortable with here is my schedule.  While it changes between the days, I usually wake up around 6:30 or 7 and leave around 7:30 or 8.  Fridays, I wake up right before 8 to skype my family and Saturday, I sleep in.  If I have jewelry making, I wake up at 8.  I usually get to bed in time for 8 hours, though we’ve been struggling to get to sleep these past few weeks for some reason.  It’s a nice schedule.  I’m a morning person with an oversleeping problem, so it works for me.  I can get up and have plenty of time to get ready and do things in the morning, but if I oversleep, I have an hour buffer.  I’m quite good at getting ready quickly when I need.

However, getting up only 30 minutes earlier today, I realized that I’ve forgotten why I love mornings.  I’ve forgotten why I’d rather wake up and walk to Java City at 5am to cram for an exam than to stay up til 3am doing it. 

It’s something about the light.  I’m trying to pin it.  I didn’t see the sunrise, but I saw the way the light looks after the sunrise.  At the point where the sun is a softly glowing beauty just above the building tops around me.  It brought such a warm feeling to me.  It reminded me of those mornings in Java City, of walking there in the dark, sitting on a couch studying, seeing the sky lighten, and change color, and then seeing that soft glow for a while after the sun was up.  It’s one thing to go see a sunrise at the beach or mountains where you leave right after to go nap again, but staying with it for hours after, I don’t know.  It just feels great to me for some odd reason.  I love the morning.

My heart is heavy with some things that are going on right now.  I’ll write about them in the next blog.  I think it’s why sleep is so elusive right now.  It’s also why I needed to see that sky today.

I’ll leave you with the lyrics to one of my favorite songs.

I see Your face in every sunrise
The colors of the morning are inside Your eyes
The world awakens in the light of the day
I look up to the sky and say,
”You’re beautiful.”

I see Your power in the moonlit night
Where planets are in motion and galaxies are bright
We are amazed in the light of the stars
It’s all proclaiming who You are
You’re beautiful.

I see You there hanging on a tree
You bled and then You died and then You rose again for me
Now You are sitting on Your heavenly throne
Soon we will be coming home
You’re beautiful!

When we arrive at Eternity’s shore
Where death is just a memory and tears are no more
We’ll enter in as the wedding bells ring
Your bride will come together and we’ll sing,
”You’re beautiful!”